yes i feel it. i'm getting delirious. blurred and disoriented. my path draws me crooked. is it something to overcome. is it something i can overcome. losing focus of the standard. dont let it slip, dont. i will not allow it.
my circle of radius limit. these i count on the fingers of my hand. thats all thats left in view. no, nothing like the sea's horizon. i've seen, read and compared all in existence. all fall short of the benchmark. i guess we shall see in time. if this is too hefty a price to pay.
something's getting in the way something's just about to break i will try to find my place in the Diary of Jane.
perfection at 5:12 PM
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Friday, October 27, 2006
deathnote. two words. excellently clever. it actually made it to my list of favourite movies. and in case you didnt know. i detest movies and watching them. unless they're good. deathnote is now after identity on the charts.
i want to learn to speak japanese. seriously. i've always been mesmerized by the language. and then after that. maybe the korean language. toylyn, who cares about french.
someone please watch identity with me.
my only option is gone smile as they break and they fall you want a simpler life you cant erase what was mine.
perfection at 3:12 PM
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
now i know where i got all this from. listening, mediating, counselling. it runs in the family. my mom, officially. my dad, unofficially. but both equally competent. both make me proud.
a major incident. remained unshaken. not till i saw the design. design of someone larger than life. something we could never foresee. how one choice led to another. how decision and circumstance dovetailed. how every one of this was part of a plan. in a state of shock and awe. i witness and experience once again.
dont come too close you dont wanna see my ghost you're rotten but i'm betrayed by you my sweetheart.
perfection at 4:09 PM
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Friday, October 20, 2006
weird. no word better describes it. too many, too short. lots of impossibilities. this is just way too simple. i wont settle.
this impact. a pebble thrown in water. ripples yes, but temporary. fades away, and so does novelty. move back, run away. dont let me bruise you.
dont i ever learn. one after another, and then again. until i'm tired until i'm sick. when all the thrill's sucked out of it. cyclic processes.
its not about your makeup. or how you try to shape up. to these tiresome paper dreams paper dreams honey.
you're not about to lie down for your cause but you dont pull my strings cos i'm a better man moving on to better things.
perfection at 1:49 PM
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006
a day of mixed emotion. surging through every vein. successfully draining me out.
ecstatic and thankful. i should be able to get promoted. physics mid year U grade. to physics promos C grade. leniently marked but an improvement all the same.
worried and exhausted. fellow classmate sixu didnt do fantastically well. may get retained or kicked out. we then dug and scrutinised his exam scripts. and i mean DUG and SCRUTINISED. to get him to pass at least one H2. success but one down, one to go.
touched and inspired. how our class, 08/06, came together with one goal in mind. to help sixu get promoted. squeezing marks out from his exam scripts, begging teachers outside the staffroom, chasing after teachers along corridors, contemplating gang bangs and setting teachers' houses on fire. i salute our unity in crisis. this is my class and i love them.
interesting happening of the day. on the way home on 162. some random guy wanted my number. but had no guts to ask. resorted to whispering loudly to his group of friends. excellent approach, excellent.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEL ! :D
i dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up four wheel drive carved my name into his leather seat.
perfection at 11:40 AM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
i spy with my little eye. you fear you cower. afraid to possess offense. the shudder in your thoughts. possible judgement you may incur. come on. stand up for what you believe in. fight for what you deem right. know who you are and what you want. now thats hot.
intense. fiercely confident. anger, sorrow, love and pain. an apt concoction.
basketball is killing my toes. rahhness. but its so freakin addictive. then again, maybe its the company.
a woman sends you reeling from decimated dreams your misery and hate will kill us all so paint it black and take it back lets shout it loud and clear defiant to the end we hear the call.
perfection at 9:30 AM
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
goodness. that inspiration to blog is gone. and where do i start.
difficulty, challenge. thats what draws and devours. but simultaneously. there's a derivation of fun. on so many occasions. the feeling of white flags sets in. waiting to pull me down under. then again. its just a game.
read my lips. i spell effort. thereafter. lay back and smell the flowers. hold tight before i run away.
i live i breathe i let it rain on me i sleep i wake i try hard not to break why do you see right through me.
perfection at 1:47 PM
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
thank you 08/06. today will be inscribed in the pages of my memory. because all of you made it so beautiful.
peace is not the absence of conflict. it is the knowledge that God is in control amidst conflict.
you're beautiful you're beautiful you're beautiful its true.
perfection at 5:00 PM
theJOURNEY.
theTUNES.
what sing you.
theMUSICIAN.
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